Like A Numb Little Bug

Hello dear reader, if you’ve reached this far, you’ve probably read the entire update. Even if you haven’t, it’s totally okay, not everyone has a knack for reading. In my previous editorial, I talked about the journey from elections to writing the article. In this edition, I’d like to give you a sneak peek of the world brewing inside my mind lately.

To start off, I’ve been on writers’ block for almost a month, even while currently writing this on the ‘Notes’ app on my phone, I’m still dealing with the writers’ block. And I will not lie to you, it’s really hard dealing with a blank mind when your only speciality is thinking and writing it down. Sometimes it has gotten so bad that I’ve had people restraining me physically from throwing things here and there out of frustration because I could not think and write anything. It’s unfortunate how human brains give up so easily. And it’s even more unfortunate how it wants to do things but it’s just not capable of it. And you know what? I think that’s okay, because the world isn’t a wish granting factory that makes everything come true.

Second of the storms brewing inside would be the pressure of friendships. Friends. We all have friends, various kinds even— good, close, best, whatever you name it. Even I had a large group of friends, but because of my schedule at school and emotional unavailability at times, we got distanced. More distanced than I would’ve preferred, and that ended up with them and I back to strangers, pretending the other one doesn’t exist. And you know what? THAT is also okay, because things like these happen. People will come, people will go— what you must learn is that life goes on. Only a few hours ago, I came across this quote that says, “People aren't homes, they never will be. Maybe people are boats on the rivers, sailing through the highs and lows. Making a tiny space for themselves, enough to be someone's home”. They say home is where the heart is, so my advice is, keep the heart with yourself, be your own home, be your own safe space.

Last, but not the least, I would like to talk about the academic pressure. I am not saying that I have the best of grades, neither am I saying that I work my best for them. I try, whatever I can. As a student, my sole purpose is to study, yet I can never seem to fulfil it. The pressure is a lot yes, but it does not mean that I, or anyone should give up. I mean, just look around you, everyone you’ve seen and met has been through the same things, surpassed them, and are still here. If they can do it, why can’t you? Although, I admit it’s going to take loads of time and effort to get back on my “All A's” track, I’m still on it and still very capable of it. And there’s no one in this universe who can tell me otherwise.

To wrap things up, I write to you dear reader and tell you- that you ought not give up under any circumstances. Things happen—maybe you lost your favourite piece of clothing, maybe your favourite coffee mug broke, maybe you and your best friend got into a fight, but at the end of day, life goes on. It must go on. So what I want you to do from today onwards is that— whenever you feel demotivated, or you feel down, just remember; that six months, or even six weeks down the lane this will be insignificant or hurt way less than it hurts now. Stop worrying yourself about silly things; you’re made for much greater goods.